I feel the need to make excuses today...and bring a little excitement!

Just when I think you all are going to tell me to get a grip, stop feeling sorry for myself--don't you read others blogs? Don't you know that despite it all, you are a very blessed girl?? You all indulge me anyway, send me your wishes, your love, remedies of jammies, movies, and good food. And that is why I love you. Because you know that all I need is a little love.

To let you know, I am feeling much, much better. Background on not feeling so great: More lawyer stuff with Mr S. Boo. But even more than that, at our other store (not mine) we had to lay off three people this week. And I am just sick about it. We are such a small company that we are all like family. We know each other's kids (ok well I know their kids, they know each other's kids), spouses, what's going on, our mood swings, what is happening with the family, we know the tone of each others voices, -- i.e. they know when something has made me mad--but seriously we are like family. And to have to do this before the holidays--I mean no time is a good time to get laid off--but the way the economy is, I know families are already struggling. I am just sick about it. My Dad (the owner of both stores) has been besides himself. We are hoping that they can go and collect unemployment for a few months and as soon as things get picked back up (and paid off) we can bring them back on with no problem. Will that work? I don't know. That particular store is a builder store. We sell flooring and install for builders in the area. We have had two HUGE builders go bankrupt this year, meaning we are writing off over $125,000. For a company of our size, that is ENORMOUS. But more than anything, I just feel for those families, my heart aches for them. But that is part of owning your own business, it's not just about you, it's about everyone involved. Our employees, their families, our installers, their families, our vendors, their families. And let me tell you, whoever said owning your own business was the way to go..ugh. I don't know, maybe we are just in the wrong business. Life is too stressful to have to worry about work too! Haha!

Ok now that I got that over with. This weekend I am doing Christmas shopping. I need to make a list, check it twice. I am going to go see Twilight. I have heard good and bad reviews. I'll let you know what I think.

I need to start exercising again. I have been feeling the urge. But can I say some excuses for a minute? I leave for work at 7, I get up at 6-er 6:30 to go. Getting up at 5 AM is reallly difficult, not that it's hard to get out of the bed, but that it's hard to drive to work at 7. My drive to work takes about 50 minutes to an hour. And it's a looonnnggg boring drive. I get sleepy. That's not a good thing. But by the time I get home 6:30-7, and I have been driving for an hour, and I have been fighting with vendors, customers, and installers all day...and it's so cold out now...not to mention dark. I can not seem to muster the strength to go run--or do anything really. But I know I need to find it somewhere within me...ugh.

On an even BETTER NOTE! Guess what???? I am going to go see Mr S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
December 12th, I am going to board a plane, with my little sister who has agreed to go with me because she can go for free out of the goodness of her heart, to Puerto Rico! I will get to see him for 8 hours on December 13th!!! It will have been 9 months and I am soooo excited to see him! I seriously cannot wait!!!!!!!

Lot's of ! I know, but wouldn't you be excited?? And no, for all you wondering, there are no conjugal visits. I can hug and kiss him when I first see him, and when I have to leave him, but that is all. But that's alright! I'm just really really happy that I get to go! So I have 3 weeks to lose 10 more pounds. Did I mention that I have lost 10 pounds? I have! So we'll see! Hopefully I can accomplish that by not running. But YAY!

I still don't know what to wear. I want to shop for something. Problem is (well it's not a huge problem hehe) that it's warm in puerto rico! Yay! And everything out is cold weather! Maybe I can find something on sale! I do however, know what I can't wear.
#1--no bras with under wire--why? In case I decide to slip Mr. S my under wire?? WTH.
#2--no shirts with ties--Apparently so no one can strangle me with them...Wow.
#3--no revealing clothing--Apparently the guys make comments about someone's wife and people end up dead. Yikes.

Does that stuff scare me? A little, but not really for me, more for Mr S. He has seen some gruesome things. But I am nervous! Not about the whole jail thing, but about seeing Mr. S! Is that weird? It's like a nervous excitement!! I don't know how to explain it! I almost feel that it's not really going to happen! Let's just say I won't believe it, til I see him!

I got my hotel yesterday. I need to book my flight..anyone know of any GREAT websites with fantastic prices??

Did I mention how excited I am???