Tuesday, July 6, 2010

The sun will come out....

So I said I knew things would be better. And they are, to a degree. The undercurrent of emotion is still strong and it's better to not talk out loud or the waterworks start back up.

So let's talk about the bright spots:

1. I turned off comments on my last post. Not because I didn't want support, but merely because I wrote the post because I needed it. I needed to vent my pain and frustration. It really helped. But imagine my surprise when you all weren't having any of that, and I receieved some much needed emails and words of encouragement. Thank you, thank you much more than I know how to express.

2. Today I found a really cute pair of shoes on sale. So I bought them. Even though I really need "winter" shoes (read: closed, not sandals).

3. My check was bigger than I was expecting. Who doesn't love that?

4. I plan on buying something not good for me at the padaria (bakery) on the way to work. I was thinking something filled with ricotta cheese and sun dried tomatos...mmmm

I have some fun pictures to share, so I'll be back with some happy..or a lot...to try and counteract all the drama.

10 comments:

Lin said...

We all have our down days but I'm glad that you're trying to stay focused on the good :)

Betty said...

I´m so glad you are treating yourself to some well deserved "shop therapy"! Really hope you find a place of your own soon!

The Planner said...

I'm so glad you've turned comments back on and are able to see the bright side of things. I can't tell you how much I can sympathize with your last post. It's EXACTLY how I felt while living in Peru, but I have to tell you, I truly admire your strength and faith. You've lasted much longer in Brazil than I did in Peru and for that I admire you. Keep up the good work!

Linds said...

I also wanted to tell you how much I relate to you and I truly believe it does have a lot to do with not having your own space. You know I'm in the same situation. Right now Ro's whole family is off travelling so we have the house to ourselves for 3 weeks. It's been like a breath of fresh air and for the first time since I arrived, I really feel like I'm starting to like it here. I know it's because of the personal space - you automatically don't feel like a guest in your own home, which is the worst. Hang in there baby!

That Girl said...

I'm so sorry. If it makes you feel any better, I felt the exact same way living in Brazil. (At least, some days ....)

Here's sending you lots of love and sunshine!

Jim said...

Glad to hear the sun is out.

My email offer still stands. Let me know. =8^)

TCMbook said...

Hang in there girl. Don't give up hope. By the way, I found a great immigration lawyer who is supper nice (even though I know you have had enough of them), let me know if you want her info.

lovelydharma said...

I read your Monday post just now today and I had the exact same day yesterday. Same feelings, same I want out of this, I want my old life back, what am I doing here, I just want to cry - and I am not living with in-laws! (Well the MIL is showing up this weekend.) I don't know if that should make you feel better or worse given that we just passed our 5 year mark - but I guess that goes to show that it does get better and sometimes it gets worse and then it always gets better again. You are doing AMAZING. You should feel like a hero because you are! xo

Vanessa Rogers said...

Living in a a foreign country is hard. Especially when you have to live in a house full of people. Not to mention your in-laws. I wish I had some advice, but I don't really. It's like the tide, it ebbs and flows with time. Some days are worse than others. I hope you guys get your own place soon! :)

The Roaming Southerner said...

i totally understand the not fitting in and wanting people to get you...thanks for sharing. It makes me feel less alone in being an expat