Sunday, January 11, 2009

And She's Back...

Today has been a wonderful day. I got to read and FINALLY finish a book called Moloka'i that I have been trying to get through for a while now. I loved it. It is one of those books that puts things into perspective. The protagonist lives through the worst of things...unimaginable circumstances...yet she lives and she loves despite them. And there are SO many people around me, who do the same thing, here, in real life. I am grateful for them. I am grateful for the reminder that no one escapes life. It just is what it is. It's hard, it's painful, but it can be wonderful, happy, and full of JOY.


I don't know the word for what I am feeling right now. Sort of nostalgic I suppose. I am wrapped up in the memories of the times Mr. S was here. The things that make me miss him, the moments that made me love him, and I am grateful for those moments. Because as much as I hate it, without those things, those happy moments, I would not hurt as much as I do right now. I wouldn't miss him like I do. I realize the crater that is in my life right now is because he was the one who put it there. I know this time we are facing apart is quickly coming to a close. I am SO very grateful for that. I am grateful because my husband and I get to be together again. I am grateful for that because I know that there are so many spouses who no longer have that privilege. To think about it...it takes my breath away.


So if you don't mind, I want to share some of the things that make me love Mr. S, some of the memories that made me so happy today.


The first time I told Mr. S I loved him back...he picked me up off my feet, spun me around, yelled something in Portuguese, and gave me a big kiss.


Getting him the beach bike he wanted so badly but hardly used for our anniversary!



Seeing him on the jobsite working so hard and being soo good at his job and stealing kisses--and trying not to embarrass him in front of the guys!

The time Sidnei decided to cut his own hair...wouldn't let me do it. His phone rang, he asked me to answer it and put it on speaker. While talking and laughing, the clipper guard fell off, and he put a BIG FAT patch in his head. You should have seen the look on his face. It was priceless. I let a little giggle escape--you know the nervous kind, like uh oh? Well let me just tell you all-- Did you know it was my fault?? Well apparently it was. Apparently I was distracting him! He was SO mad. We were at his place, so I left. He came over later, donning his new style. He buzzed it all off. You can see in this picture, he is feeling better even though to this day it is still my fault and still on the phone.


The flowers...just because



The kisses...oh I miss the kisses...
This is one of my favorite engagement photos!




Talking Mr S into good memories! Here we are in the Wild, Wild West


The lazy Sunday afternoons sleeping and watching TV.

The day Mr S was baptized


The English/Portuguese Dictionary I kept in my purse..

Obviously I could go on forever. I am in no way lacking in love. I miss the way he smells, the laughs, the loving, holding hands. I am looking forward to the fact that we will one SOON have all those things again.

I can't remember who said this, and as soon as I do I will make sure to give them credit and if you said this PLEASE let me know! I am trying to go through my email to find it!...but they said, you can make your home anywhere, but you can't make everyone the love of your life. Oh so very true my friend.

So the point of all this? Because I need to learn to be happier day to day. I need to learn that in the face of adversity, it is not as bad as it seems. I need to remember that there is a plan, whether I can see it at this time or not. I am so loved by so many people. My husband, my family, my friends, and all of you. Thanks for allowing me to share this, to share our journey, and to support me through it all.



27 comments:

Young Momma said...

You guys are so stinking cute! I love it! I'm so glad you're going to be with him again, soon! :)

Does he speak English fluently now? I remember reading the whole story, but can't remember that fact! I know so many couples who have had to fight through a language barrier in the beginning. It silly, but to me it seems like it gives them another type of bond. Something they worked hard at to be part of each other. So sweet! :)

Natalie said...

wow. what a great post for me to read first to start to get to know you! I love the pictures of yall on the beach! and flowers just because... sounds like a good man to me!

AndreaLeigh said...

I LOVE the pictures, S! You have such a great perspective.

Rebecca said...

I'm so glad you'll get to see him soon!

Shawn and I met at college, and sometimes I just hate being here because it reminds me of him. It reminds me that we used to see each other everyday, and not just twice a year. Being here reminds me of fun dates and kisses :)

I'm not in any way trying to say I know what you're going through. Dating someone in the military is much different than what you are going through. I don't think I could have your positive attitude! I wish there was an end in sight for me and this long distance relationship :)

JSue said...

You are so precious! I just know that God is going to bless you soon with all your faithfulness.

(Thank you, Laural, for introducing me to Mrs. S...)

Love the pics. I think your favorite is my favorite, too!!

Blissful Babe said...

You are so beautiful, my friend.
It's a good thing he has one of those faces/heads that can do the totally shaved thing effortlessly, huh? *snicker*

Your favorite is my favorite, as well. The smile on his face is so sweet.

Love you!
xoxo

tara @ kidz said...

OH!

You just made ME fall in love with Mr S!

What a sweetheart!

Ballerina Girl said...

so wonderful Mrs. S!!!! You both look so beautiful in these pictures...and you do make me realize how lucky we are to have our loved ones close. I am so happy that you will be with yours once again.
Keep us updated...i enjoy reading your blog so much!
BG

Ms. Cupcake said...

Dropping by from sits. Great blog. Great post! Have a wonderful week. And you guys really are too cute!

ko said...

LOVE LOVE LOVE all of the stories and photos! WOW! I love the pic of you kissing him too! that is ABSoLUTELY PRECIOUS! Mr S looks like a kid in a candy shop when he is with you! :) I know you cant wait for you guys to be back together! I have that dictionary too! Sergio has to carry it around..he is getting really good at his Portuguese
Take care! SMILE! :)
kyley

mrsmouthy said...

Thank you for all the memories--it made me feel like they were mine! I think today I'll sit down and make a similar list and give it to my own husband.

Keeper of the Skies Wife said...

That was very sweet. You can tell how much you are in love with him by reading this post!

You are so Beautiful!!!!

Lady Fi said...

You guys are so wonderful - and you deserve to be together for ever and forever happy...

Kerri said...

You guys are an adorable couple! I'm interested to hear the story of his baptism. I know everyone on your blog isn't LDS, but you should post about it someday. And have you already posted about how you met each other? If not, I would loe to hear it!

Betty said...

You´re so sweet. I hope you get to see S. soon and that you can finally start your life together!
Loved seeing those photos!

Heather said...

You guys are such a cute couple!!!
Know wonder you miss/love him so much. He sounds like a wonderful guy!!!

Krystyn said...

Thanks for sharing your memories. What a sweetheart!

And, I totally forgot the guard one time, and made a slight patch in the mr's head. Oh, well!

Here's to more good news coming.

Lula! said...

Oh, how I loved this post...loved the pictures, loved the meaning behind each picture...just beautiful!

And I love your blog makeover, too. I need to do mine...
Sigh...

The Reality of Happily Ever After said...

I. love. your. pics.

Know what else I love? Your incredible amount of gratitude -- seriously... you, of all people, would truly have the right to be completely pissed off and negative and nope... you're not -- love it --

Bird, Frizzy and Our Little Yaya said...

Beautiful post to your husband and love. I am sorry you are apart now. I pray the distance between you comes to an end very soon!

TattooedMinivanMom said...

I hope it all happens soon for you!

Carla said...

You are an inspiration of love and devotion . . .

Really.

Simply.

Perfect.

(and the translation is coming today btw - got a little side tracked by being sick)

Fabiola said...

Just a perfect post! Love it!!!

Fabiola

Anonymous said...

This entry brought a tear to my eye. I remember hearing about all these things as they happened in your life over the phone:)I cant wait till you guys are togeather again and you can go back to feeling that happy and free again because if any one deserves happiness its you my friend, my bff:) I love and miss you so much and am looking forward to our double date in Vegas!

Vanessa Rogers said...

What wonderful memories!!! I can see why you miss him so much. But it will be very soon, at least that is my wish for both of us. I am going a little Kyle crazy myself. And please please continue leaving long messages on my blog! I LOVE it, I never get tired of it!! My family and friends from home don't comment very often so I am glad you do.

Queenie Jeannie said...

Ahhhh! Loved this!

I can't wait to read your posts after you are together again!!! Who needs romance novels????

Hugs honey!

angi_b72 said...

Waht a great poat!! It made me tear up as I read it and looked at the pictures and to think abut what you must be going thru...it has to be SO hard!! Much respect for you!