Wednesday, January 28, 2009

That Crazy Thing Called Love

I was having a conversation on the phone last night with someone who asked me about Mr S and our situation. So I was telling her the odds and ends, what was going on, what we were expecting to happen, etc. And she said, "I can't imagine how hard all this must have been on you all. How much has your relationship suffered? Do you think you will stay married after this is finished?"

Needless to say I was almost stunned in silence. I was thinking in my head, "Huh? Lady, what are you talking about?" And of course, trying to recover gracefully, it dawned on me that not everyone presented with this situation would necessarily stay married. That there are some who would not have weathered the trials so well. So I let her know, that we were doing fine. That I was grateful because I felt we were stronger, not only as a couple, but individually. However, we were not foolish enough to believe that when we are together again our relationship will just continue on like before. We know that we are slightly different people than we were 10 (almost 11) months ago, but the good thing is I love Mr. S so much more than I did then.

Will we always weather the storms of life this well? I know that life can deal some difficult hands. I like to think that if we get through this, we can overcome just about anything.

This song will forever remind me of how I feel about Sidnei. I wanted this particular song to be sung at our wedding, but we could never find music for it.

"Face Of Love"

until tonight
my heart was just half full
i'd never known the fruit which fed the soul
but now i see what may put to rest my longing
for i have seen, the face of love
the grace of god, the face of love
in silence i feared my heart
would remain words unheard
inside a separateness of skin
but now i know that the skin just veils the soul
for i have seen, the face of love
the grace of god, the face of love
so take my hand and knowing
with it i also give my heart
wanting never to be separate again
let eternity begin
if you were flame
i'd allow myself to be consumed completely
were you wind i would wish you pass through me
but now i know that the skin just veils the soul
for i have seen, the face of love
the grace of god, the face of love


Young Momma said...

When I first read your story - not the whole of it - but the start and some middle of it. I really wasn't sure if you'd be able to stay married after it all. I realized a lot of people would stay talking while the guy was in jail for the sense of company and someone on the outside. However, once I finished reading the story and even more so as I read your blog now, I see that that's not you guys. The way you speak of your phone calls and the way you still treat each other. It's a blessing. I'm excited to read about your lives together when he gets home!

angie said...

I would have been stunned. After all you've been through with not even plan on trying to make it work? Crazy.

Kerri said...

Great song! You guys will do just fine.

Krystyn said...

God gives you the strength do move passed any will have some bumps...but what married couple doesn't. And, you will be stronger for it.

LadyFi said...

I love that song! Gosh.. I never imagined for a second that you guys wouldn't stay together!

kimber p said...

I haven't commented for awhile Mrs S, this made me wipe a tear from my eye this morning...never for one second, reading your story from day one, have I ever imagined you two wouldn't be together when this craziness has passed.

You two are a testiment to enduring love if I ever read one....

Valerie said...

Beautiful song. I hadn't been over here in a while and wanted to see how things were going. Marriage is work, you've already put a lot into yours. Other people have left each other for smaller things than what you are going through. Reading about you and Sidnei's ordeal I can't imagine you not making it. Hope you get some good news soon!

Ashley said...

You know often times when I hear people talk about their husbands or their marriage (or their marriage that didn't work), I think that Lucas and I are really lucky to have such a strong marriage. It is nice to be married for 2 years (I know we still have a long way to go) and still be whole-heartedly in love more than ever and to just be generally happy with each other every day. I think you and Mr. S have that same level of connection that will keep you happy and in love for the rest of your life. These hard times in the beginning will just strengthen that bond and you'll really be able to appreciate being together. That song is perfect. I'm ready for you two to be happy every day with each other. Hopefully he'll be home soon.

Anonymous said...

Here's the thing, some people don't get married with the idea that it's forever. It's sad really. I think you get it. Even though there will be lots of storms to weather, you stick together. That's marriage.

tara @ kidz said...

This is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing. Music always touches me.