Saturday, November 22, 2008

I feel the need to make excuses today...and bring a little excitement!

Just when I think you all are going to tell me to get a grip, stop feeling sorry for myself--don't you read others blogs? Don't you know that despite it all, you are a very blessed girl?? You all indulge me anyway, send me your wishes, your love, remedies of jammies, movies, and good food. And that is why I love you. Because you know that all I need is a little love.

To let you know, I am feeling much, much better. Background on not feeling so great: More lawyer stuff with Mr S. Boo. But even more than that, at our other store (not mine) we had to lay off three people this week. And I am just sick about it. We are such a small company that we are all like family. We know each other's kids (ok well I know their kids, they know each other's kids), spouses, what's going on, our mood swings, what is happening with the family, we know the tone of each others voices, -- i.e. they know when something has made me mad--but seriously we are like family. And to have to do this before the holidays--I mean no time is a good time to get laid off--but the way the economy is, I know families are already struggling. I am just sick about it. My Dad (the owner of both stores) has been besides himself. We are hoping that they can go and collect unemployment for a few months and as soon as things get picked back up (and paid off) we can bring them back on with no problem. Will that work? I don't know. That particular store is a builder store. We sell flooring and install for builders in the area. We have had two HUGE builders go bankrupt this year, meaning we are writing off over $125,000. For a company of our size, that is ENORMOUS. But more than anything, I just feel for those families, my heart aches for them. But that is part of owning your own business, it's not just about you, it's about everyone involved. Our employees, their families, our installers, their families, our vendors, their families. And let me tell you, whoever said owning your own business was the way to go..ugh. I don't know, maybe we are just in the wrong business. Life is too stressful to have to worry about work too! Haha!

Ok now that I got that over with. This weekend I am doing Christmas shopping. I need to make a list, check it twice. I am going to go see Twilight. I have heard good and bad reviews. I'll let you know what I think.

I need to start exercising again. I have been feeling the urge. But can I say some excuses for a minute? I leave for work at 7, I get up at 6-er 6:30 to go. Getting up at 5 AM is reallly difficult, not that it's hard to get out of the bed, but that it's hard to drive to work at 7. My drive to work takes about 50 minutes to an hour. And it's a looonnnggg boring drive. I get sleepy. That's not a good thing. But by the time I get home 6:30-7, and I have been driving for an hour, and I have been fighting with vendors, customers, and installers all day...and it's so cold out now...not to mention dark. I can not seem to muster the strength to go run--or do anything really. But I know I need to find it somewhere within me...ugh.

On an even BETTER NOTE! Guess what???? I am going to go see Mr S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
December 12th, I am going to board a plane, with my little sister who has agreed to go with me because she can go for free out of the goodness of her heart, to Puerto Rico! I will get to see him for 8 hours on December 13th!!! It will have been 9 months and I am soooo excited to see him! I seriously cannot wait!!!!!!!

Lot's of ! I know, but wouldn't you be excited?? And no, for all you wondering, there are no conjugal visits. I can hug and kiss him when I first see him, and when I have to leave him, but that is all. But that's alright! I'm just really really happy that I get to go! So I have 3 weeks to lose 10 more pounds. Did I mention that I have lost 10 pounds? I have! So we'll see! Hopefully I can accomplish that by not running. But YAY!

I still don't know what to wear. I want to shop for something. Problem is (well it's not a huge problem hehe) that it's warm in puerto rico! Yay! And everything out is cold weather! Maybe I can find something on sale! I do however, know what I can't wear.
#1--no bras with under wire--why? In case I decide to slip Mr. S my under wire?? WTH.
#2--no shirts with ties--Apparently so no one can strangle me with them...Wow.
#3--no revealing clothing--Apparently the guys make comments about someone's wife and people end up dead. Yikes.

Does that stuff scare me? A little, but not really for me, more for Mr S. He has seen some gruesome things. But I am nervous! Not about the whole jail thing, but about seeing Mr. S! Is that weird? It's like a nervous excitement!! I don't know how to explain it! I almost feel that it's not really going to happen! Let's just say I won't believe it, til I see him!

I got my hotel yesterday. I need to book my flight..anyone know of any GREAT websites with fantastic prices??

Did I mention how excited I am???

23 comments:

Midwest Mommy said...

My heart breaks for getting pink slips right now.

onlymehere said...

I'm very excited for you and this trip. I'm sorry about the layoffs. We just got an email stating that we're all taking a 20% pay cut starting December first so in a way I can feel what these people must be feeling. My son has been laid off for three months and just found a part-time job. We discovered after that he should have kept pulling unemployment until he found a full time job bz he's coming out with less money doing this and can't meet his bills. He's the same one getting married in May or early summer. Enjoy shopping for the trip!

Kerri said...

I am so excited taht you get to go and see your hubbie! I would be nervous too. I'm glad your spirits are lifting. When you were talking about wanting to excercise I was wishing that you lived in my town so we could work out together! Keep your chin up and focus on your blessings. It helps me!

AndreaLeigh said...

Wow, that is AMAZING news! I'm so excited for your trip. How exciting!

I'm sorry to hear about the layoffs, though. That is extremely hard and stressful. I will be praying for those families.

Debateur said...

Wow that must have been so hard especially having to do it right before Christmas. I'm sorry.

Wep said...

YAY That you are getting to see your husband!! WOO HOO!

nikkicrumpet said...

How exciting for you to finally get to see your sweetie...I hope everything goes well and works out so that you two get a wonderful visit!

Tabitha Blue said...

So sorry for the business... it really is hard to make those tough decisions, but they sometimes have to be made. Hope it gets better.


And yay for you!!! That is great to be able to see him! Wow, 9 months, I can't even imagine how excited you must feel :)

Brenda said...

Try Kayak.com. And priceline.com

I have gotten great flights there.

I found you on BATW.

Excited for you!

Vanessa Rogers said...

That is so exciting! You are going to have an awesome trip. Good for you.

~*amber*~ said...

OMG, are you serious!? That is freaking awesome! I know how excited you must be; overwhelming excitement.

Those clothing rules, yeah, a little scary. I guess that means no shoes with laces or anything crazy either, huh?

Glad you are taking someone with you as well.

Does he know you are coming?

That sucks on the layoffs, especially right before Christmas, but you have to do what you have to do to keep your business afloat. I am sure it will work out and you can bring them back on. Any type of residential home building or anything to go along with it is really struggling right now. Trust me, my husband does construction and they haven't worked in months.

TMI said...

Oh my gosh I have butterflies in my stomach FOR you! December 13th can't come soon enough!!! =)

Bia Mendonça said...

That'a great Stephanie!! I'm so happy for you two! I know how it is to be apart from the one we love, so I can totally understand the way you feel right now and I know this feeling! I'm very excited for you and I hope that you 2 can found a way to fix it soon, so you 2 can be reunited! :)

hugs!

Ashley said...

I'm sorry about all that bad stuff but seeing Sidnei surely makes up for all that junk! Yay! I don't know of any secret websites with the best deals. We bought our tickets to Colombia off of Orbitz b/c they had the best price - but it is different everytime. You can check out bookingbuddy.com. I think they search all of the travel websites to find the best deals. I'm guessing though your ticket is going to cost a pretty penny since it is an international trip and less than a month away. Good luck!

angie said...

How exciting about going to see your hubby. I'm SO happy for you......

Amanda K said...

Thanks for visiting me and leaving me some SITSa Love!! Way to go on your trip and your 10 pounds!! That is so great and fun!!

Laural Out Loud said...

Oh, man, having to lay people off, especially ones that you know, must be so so tough. But you and your dad have good hearts, and your decisions are coming from the right place. Hopefully good things will come to the workers you had to let go.

As for seeing Sidnei, YESSSS!!! Your trip is just around the corner! Don't stress yourself out over yoru weight, though. I'm sure he could care less about 10 pounds. I'll pray for strength for you that day.

Dari said...

I am SOOOOOO EXCITED for you!!! I was gonna ask you about the little conjugal visit HA HA We're close like that ;) That is great that you get to see him! It will be so hard to leave again though. You will have to let me know what grief that stupid attorney was giving you!

Sorry about the lay-offs. I would hate to have to do that. But that is how it goes sometimes. Hopefully your plan will work for rehiring them :)

Loves and I'm sooo happy for you!

Ashley said...

Hey again! I left an award for you over at my place.

Ronnica said...

I'm so glad that you're getting to see Sidnei! Oh, and I wouldn't worry about what to where (besides what's on the no-no list)...Sidnei will be glad to see you regardless!

Fabiola said...

Your trip is just great.
As Laural said, don´t worry about the weight and just keep being strong and you will fix this mess soon.

Fabiola

Elaine A. said...

Oh, I am SO, SO happy that you are going to get to see him. You are SUCH a strong woman. I honestly don't know how you do it. Prayers for you both that the reunion is wonderful (I'm sure it will be) and that you can enjoy every moment.

Marina said...

I am so happy for you!! marina